Just feeling kinda blue..
Seems to happen to me once in a while...where all of a sudden, i'd just rather be alone than with a whole bunch of friends... when it takes 3 times the usual effort to say a joke to my mum.. when I have a sudden urge to be beside the calm waters at MacRitchie watching the sun set..... and brain's just filled with random pockets of flashbacks about events, some recent, some a long time ago.... happy memories suddenly surfaces and makes me smile...and frustrating ones just makes brings me down more....
Why are there so many things that require my attention all at the same time..
Recent events have gotten me thinking..if I have really fitted in and am playing my role well. On one hand, I do really want to get involved, and on the other hand, I know I still am inadequate.
Frustrating..
Inevitable change is looming, and all I can say is, it depresses me. My pillars of strength are going to disappear.....will I still be able to stand without them?
Many are asking me to move on, but are the pastures really greener on the other side? Yes I am tough, and have survived for so long...but the step seems a little too huge...
It's Fathers' Day today......
happy father's day daddy...we miss you..
