Yesterday was the last day of school. A day that was filled with mixed emotions..
I always thought that I'd be so happy that last day of school was here, because that meant that I can finally really take a good break, and rest. I never used to have dark eye rings, nor even eye bags for that matter. They are a rare commodity where I am concerned. But over these 2 terms of school, I actually had BOTH at one point in time. And eye rings on many other occassions..that just shows the extent of my tiredness sometimes. So definitely, end of term means the beginning of good rest.
So on one hand, I'm happy. But yet on the other, I felt a little sad, because... I was "letting go" of my form class. Don't know if it's called emo (a relatively new word that I picked up from students recently), but I'm definitely a sentimental person. Was thinking through the night before, what I should share with them as a class before I dismissed them. I was never good with such things, saying farewell speeches to big groups and debriefing and stuff. So decided to write my class a little note of parting words instead. Initally I had wanted to bring my guitar in and sing them a portion of Corrine May's song as my parting words...the lyrics were something that I thought, I really wanted to say to them.... But as I thought about it, I decided against it..I think I wouldn't be able to finish singing it in a composed manner.
Before ending the day, I asked them, "Anybody has any last words to say to the class before we go?", thinking that, not many would want to stand up and speak to the entire class, BUT I WAS SO WRONG. One by one, they came forward..and shared with the class personal thoughts..about how we started out as 1-5..about how they bonded together over the course of this year..about the ups and downs...about the numerous nicknames.. We went on and on for i at least 1/2 hour..one of them even cried. That really touched my heart so much, that they had such deep bonds with one another.
There are many things that I want to say, but I didn't know how and when to say to them. So I shall say them here.
To my form class:
I never told you all, but you are quite similar to my own secondary 1 class when I was in secondary school. Fun-loving, cheeky, NOISY, makes our teachers angry, (with the exception of a few who were superbly fierce), always having a fun time in class, very very close-knit with fantastic class spirit. My class was notorious for being superbly noisy, and we were ever punished as a class, to write an entire essay on "Why we should not make noise in class" because one of my teachers could hear us from the other end of the corridor (my class was at one end of the corridor). On a few ocassions, i think we made my form teacher cry out of exasperation. You guys remind me so much of that class I was in. NOW I know what my teachers felt like, because I am now in their shoes.
It was a challenging task given to me, to be form teacher of the class. From last year till this year, there were many ups and downs...laughter and tears as well. I remember last year, how our class didn't really feel together. But this year, you guys slowly came together, and I am very proud to say that at the end of the day, you guys have come out as a CLASS, bonded..and genuinely concerned for one another.
Contrary to what some of you may think, I have never, and I repeat, NEVER, thought that we were the worst class in the level. Whoever gave you all that impression? I never told you all, but I always maintained that my class is one who are not malicious, just overly noisy and having too much fun sometimes...on the whole, the class is made up of people who are actually nice and real individuals. But of course, having too much fun has repercussions, which means you sometimes exasperate the teachers, including me. Sometimes, I really do feel like strangling some of you :P But know that in the things that I do, I do them with your interests at heart, though sometimes, it may feel otherwise.
Hearing all that you all shared yesterday really warmed my heart. Class spirit was something that worried me for some time, but yesterday was a most wonderful conclusion to the 2 years. Thanks for being a part of my journey. I have learnt a lot over the past 2 years..and also made my fair share of mistakes. Thanks for enduring through my mistakes. I hope you guys have learnt a lot of important lessons too.
Sec 3 is going to be different, more demanding, more juggling to do with work/CCA/play. Learn to prioritse and make the best of your next 2 years yah? It will pass as fast as these 2 years did, and before you know it, you would have graduated. Guard your friendships with each other, and continue to support one another, even though you may be in separate classes next year. These friendships are what will last a lifetime.
To end off, here are the lyrics of the chorus of Corrine May's song (that I planned to sing for you, but didn't in the end.) I have changed a little bit of it to fit our context. It's called
Fly Away.
You can fly so high,
keep your gaze upon the sky.
I'll be praying every step along the way.
Even though, it breaks my heart to know that we will have to part,
I love you too much to make you stay.
Baby fly away.
Take care you all.